بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
To Go Or Not To Go
I don’t know wether this place is good or no
It means for me charity and beautiful memories
But after I had changed , is it still suitable for me?i
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Guys and girls are gathered there
For humanity , of course , are there
But problems chased every place of mixing male & female
So is it still suitable for me ?
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Once I considered it as my home , my dear home
The place where I have found people that understand me
They are like me , thinking , feelings ..they are like me
I have found what didn’t find in my real home or
In my social enviorment , I found myself with them
But after I have changed , should I find new (me) among them
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Questions about that place, where once I wondrered:
“What kind of suffering should we go through to get the Paradise
Oh I feel life here is close to Paradise “
Is this place still like the moment I left it
Are people and relationships are like that in the past
If this place is good and right, why I am hesitated to return back
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My Allah
You know that I have prayed and prayed for you
To show me the truth
I have asked You about this place
Wether if it is bad , so let me be far from it
If it is good , let me come back to it
And messages I received from that place , after my prayers
That invited me to go back
And when I am indeed
Preparing myself for this return, for this Eid
Thoughts and thoughts struck to that mind to, to that weak
Are you serious ? or stupid you are ! oh that is ‘Akeed’
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Hesitation has squeezed me , killed me….
What should I write about it , the devil itself I see challenging me in it
A bottle , I feel , in it , I live
Please, my Art-En Friends
Tell me : should I stay or should I leave
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